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meet the 2013-2014 

PIMA AZTEC JUMPERS

i'm excited for this season. big things are about to happen. i can see my long jump PR getting about 2 feet bigger and my triple jump even more. I"m faster, better and stronger. I jumped 36.3 feet yesterday off a short approach at the UofA all comers meet. i can't even contain my excitement. it's gonna be a blast! 

Good things are coming my way. I can't even count all my blessings. feeling pretty grateful lately.

-m

I hate being a grown up

SO. today i had to go to the IRS office. at first i was like no big deal. then i was like nawww, i don't wanna. then i was like oh but i have to. so i went

okay. I HATE TUCSON. i feel like being a grownup today would not have been as stressful if i were home in Mesa.. but Tucson added to my stress today.

i type the address into my phone and i get there pretty quickly considering Tucson traffic. so i see the office and i drive past the office. and i discover my problem. WHERE THE HECK DO I PARK!? everything i read says "must have permit" k guys. funny joke. I don't have a permit!! so i drive all the way around the block back to the building.. i see a sign this time round saying "PUBLIC PARKING". okay i'm game. no prob. YES. Problem occurs i go down the hill to this thing and it says $5 cash only. NOOOOOOO! i don't have cash! so i'm like oh crap now i gotta back out. Just then a car starts coming down the hill behind me and i'm in a stick shift so hills are not my strong point. so i'm like freaking out and backing out. luckily the nice car moved out of my way. 

i go drive around the block again. this time the opposite way. literally there is no street parking anywhere (NOT LIKE it matters because Marlee can't even parallel park..) so i'm like crying and hyperventilating cuz i gotta go to this building and idk how i'm going to do it. so i go around the block AGAIN! this time stop on the side of the road sorta, i can't explain how that was okay.. but it just was.. i just couldn't park there... but i also wasn't in anyone's way. So right then i call Khalil. and i'm like crying and asking him where i go or what i do. i have no cash on me and idk where to go. he's like trying to coax me into going down the Public Parking ramp again and i'm like no. i can't. it's like walking into a trap. I'm sitting in my car tho on the side of the road yelling and freaking out at Khalil and i realized i was having a flipping anxiety attack. horrible. so i finally listen to Khalil and drive down the ramp once again this time i drive up a little further and right before i went with my original idea of smashing through the railroad post thingy up down mabobber.. i saw a BIG GREEN button. i push it and this little ticket pops out and the gate goes up. WINNING!! so i go park and make my way back to the IRS building. i have to go through a metal detector like i'm some mass murderer.. or at an airport.. so dumb. and the guy kept asking me questions about what i was doing there. (okay i looked like a five year old... i had on a hello kitty sweatshirt leggings, tall grey fuzzy socks and my Nike mandals.. judge me.) and then i had to go wait in this tiny cramped office with every Indian in Tucson and wait for my name to get called. my ADD started kicking in because i could not sit still. and everyone started staring at me.. it was bad. but the lady, who finally called me, was super nice gave me all that i needed and i was out quick. 

i got back to the parking garage and got out by paying the guy two dollars in change.. a lot of nickels actually.. it was embarassing.. 

so moral of the story. i'm getting a job so that i can just get my transcripts off the internet cuz i hate driving and people.

other moral. I HATE BEING A GROWN UP!

M.

relationships.

last night i went on a date with a guy who has been trying sooo very hard to win my affections over the last month and a half. Last night he gave me flowers and at the end of a very well thought out and cutesy date he asked me if i would be his girlfriend. you know what i said?

bet you can guess..

i said no.

why?

because i WANT to be forever alone.

jk. sorta. but as he drove me home last night before he had asked me that awful question i had already started writing this post. 

i came to the realization about me and relationships. You know? It's true- girls are mean. when they say that nice guys finish last, i guess they're right.. because this kid tried to do everything right, like i should've been swooning, right?

no. cuz as i drove back to my apartment with him i realized that i was annoyed. just annoyed. i didn't want to be there. i didn't want to be with him. i didn't want him doting on me. and i wished i would've just stayed home. even if he was "JUST SOOOOO NICE"... no. no. just no.

SO. moral of the story is i need to stop hanging out with guys who i don't see potential with.. ughhh. other moral of the story? i have problems. and need to see a psychiatrist.. buuuuut.

i'm mean. that guy probably went home and cried. wouldn't be the first time i've caused that that reaction in a guy..

happy halloween. tomorrow.

-m

never again.

today i'm annoyed and i'm not gonna let this happen to me again. today i realized that i'm a big girl. i don't need people to tell me how to live my life. Okay peeps, i'm talking about peers, not old people or your mom, your great aunt, like hey I'll listen to them all day, they've gone through more, they know more, but if you're my age? homegirl, please.. i feel like that at this stage in life, unless you are looking for advice and actively seek it, nobody and i mean NOBODY has any right to put in their two cents. like what the hell? did i ask you what yo think i should do with my life? no. NO I DID NOT! so don't come at me with what you think is right, i wasn't even talking to your ugly face. 

Yeesh. i dislike girls. the drama. the jealousy. the pettiness. the need to open their enormous mouths and spit out garbage that no one cares to hear. I'm sorry you're not satisfied with your life. like yea i get it. neither am i sometimes. but no need to throw your troubles at me in the form of belittlement. I AM AN ADULT. and i don't wanna hear you. didn't anyone teach you that. uhhhhh! bad word. bad word.. bad word.

is this just me? no? yes? okay..

xo.
m

one year.

so. i've officially had this blog for a year. go me! it's been a little buddy that i can write about my life and remember things on. so HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLOG! and i'm patting myself on the back because i've been a diligent parent to this little sucker. who knew i could be such a responsible parent? i always sucked at journal writing but the whole blogging thing is something i really enjoy even if only 3.2 people read it. i don't even care, i'm satisfied.

I think it's pretty amazing how much i've changed as a person in the last year.. i've grown up a WHOLE lot. it's funny looking back and reading old posts. i was a weirdo. (still am) i think my goal for this year though is to be a little more specific in what i write about. i realize how vague i am and i'd like to understand what i'm actually trying to say. i mean, like i said, 2.8 people actually read this blog and they aren't gonna judge me. so here's to the year i had, and here's to the years to come! #bloggingiscool

xo. m

happiness.

so i'd like to update the world.. or just the 2.5 people that read my blog and say that I'm happy. I'm that genuine, for no good reason, smiling because i can, and you can't bring me down, kind of happy.

 I MEAN PEOPLE, THIS IS HUGE, LIKE I'M NOT EVEN IN LOVE! 

unless you count being in love with life, love.. huh.. anyway. like i just feel good, and i'm content, like even though life isn't really going my way completely, and i don't really like school and my problems really haven't disappeared i'm just gonna be fine with it.. (for now, at least) cuz i don't like to be stressed. My 99 problems aren't really that big of a deal anyway. soooo what's contributing to my happiness? well. i think it's a combination of a lot of things. 

namely being:

my birthday is coming!!

i'm being really good in my eating habits and that makes my body feel good and function right.

my room is spotless and everything is in its place ALL THE TIME!

i'm working my booty off at track everyday

i get up early and go to bed at a decent time everyday

MOST OF ALL THOUGH, i'm staying on top of my spiritual side. i pray REAL prayers and i read my scriptures everyday with real intent. 

i think my spirituality is probably the real culprit to why i feel good, but if someday i'm in a rut?

 this is the combination to happiness for me. ha! even if life isn't perfect, i can still be happy.

xo.

M

first day of school.

i'm all moved into my new apartment. the struggle was real for the first three days though. we had NO AC. unbelievable. that was like almost death.. #firstworldproblems.. anyway. we did a lot of complaining and got it fixed and next month's rent is going to be cheaper. SUCKAAA. good day.
so. today was my first day of school. it was.. okay. i have spanish 101 on mondays and wednesdays from 11:40 to 1:25. it's gonna be an easy one i think. and i like being able to sit around and have the house to myself all morning. (all the other girls are in class) it's grrrrreat!! Tuesdays and Thursdays i'm in class from 8:40-1:25 which isn't really that bad either. i'm pretty happy with the way i set up my schedule. it should be pretty simple. yay!
track practice started. i'm a captain this year. so i guess that means i'm supposed to like be a leader and all that jazz. it's good for me. it pushes me to try a little harder and to keep my game face on, whereas last year i just liked to play around and laugh most of the time. PRACTICE is a pain. literally. i'm like fighting tears half the time and the other half i'm just trying to keep up. like, i put in work this summer, no lie. but chad knows how to break down and tear up a body. just when i think i couldn't be any more sore. i can. ohhhh i can. but you know what? i'm gonna suck it up and kill these practices. YOU KNOW WHY? because. BECAUSE! i want to go somewhere next year and get free stuff! (yes. free stuff is basically my goal, but hey, we all have our motivations..) i really want the rest of my school paid for. i don't want to be in crazy debt either and being a student athlete is pretty fun too. :]
this year is off to a good start. i feel like until my body adjusts to the new volume of stress i'm putting on it, i will be no fun to be around. all i wanna do is sleep and stretch and eat. wait.. what's new??
oh and watch gossip girl. i'm a little obsessed.. tay.. err Sister Southworth would be so proud. miss her.. :(

one more thing.

10 DAYS UNTIL

I'M 

{TWENTY}

YEARS

OLD!

that is all,

xo,

M

Summer 2013

well. it's over. well not OFFICIALLY, but SUMMER 2k13 is shutting off its engine. *insert sigh here*

it was a good one, definitely not one for the books, but a good one all the same.. more than anything i'd say it was kind of the summer everyone left. But they're all in good places and are doing good things and hey for all those who have left me, there are those that are coming back.. very soon. ;]

ALSO. this summer i had some growth. no need to go into a cliche "the summer i..." thing but i gained a better testimony and if that wasn't worth the stress, i don't know what is.. but i'm happy about it.
ALSO ALSO. i got a scholarship. (one that adds to my one pima has reissued..) it's $2000! craziness. i knew my essay writing skills would someday come in handy. haha. but i feel so blessed. i have prayed and prayed and fasted and really crossed my fingers for this and i cried my eyes out when i recieved the email that said i had earned it. Tears of joy are something special. I literally felt the months of stress and fear lift off my shoulders. goawwsh. i'm so blessed.

anyway. PICTURE RECAP. summer 2013

spent pretty much my whole summer with these dweebs. oh and that fat chunky baby Abbi has. Ellie!!
like whoda thunk the kid could get so huge. we got to have her for a few days in july.

Payton left me early June

attended Bri Decker's wedding. i loved seeing some of my high school friends.
they're just too cute.

Taylor's farewell lunch. 

AAAND. that's Joey Carico. or josephine. ha. did some sprint workouts with him
he's trying to be a football star or something. and he's a sort of friend.. 

right after she had been set apart, spent the night and we talked all night.
i'm so excited for her. she was like out of her mind ready to go.
she has the most infectious personality and i think she's gonna be great. :]
now i just can't wait til she come home! 18 months can't fly fast enough. where will i be FEB. 2015?

so. that about sums it up. it was the okayest of times.. and it was the okayest of times. 

SO READY TO START SCHOOL AGAIN. 

i miss my team. i miss the track. i miss triple jump. time to refocus and get my life together. i'm goin after a D1 scholarship and training started yesterday. 

xo.

-M.

stay cool.

life is disheartening. but i need to stop complaining. it could be worse. other people have it worse. some people are starving. others have no home or family. i could live in a third world country where i'm scared for my life daily. i could have parents who don't care about me or do everything they can for me. 

BUT! sometimes my little "marlee problems" really do suck. and then they suck some more. 

i just want this problem to go away. and to stop bothering me. but it won't.

it's been hanging on for years and just won't let up. 

sick of crying about it.

sick of obsessing.

i wanna move on, and be 100% positively happy ALL THE TIME!

i typically am though...

get over yourself, Marlee. there are far more important things in this world than what you think is "such a struggle" you're such a baby. meh. 

i'm slightly crazy. ehhh.

good thing only 5 people read this blog. 

xo

M.

Father's Day and Friendships

i know father's day should have its own post and all... but there are other things that have happened as of late and they are just gonna have to be included as well. so get over it.

but. we'll start with Father's Day.

that handsome blue-eyed man on the left is my pops. (my mummy is pretty stinkin cute too though.

i just wanna say that i have an amazing dad. he's so supportive and kind. He has been the greatest example of a gentleman and a husband and a father to me. He has a work ethic like no other and is one of my best friends.  i needed this guy to help in raising me. he's guided me through more struggles growing up than i can even account for. 

so thanks daddio. you are the man.

whilst the celebration of father's day yesterday, we also had a goodbye party for my Aunt Stacey and Uncle David. they're running away to Missouri. it's crazy. i'm really feeling for my mom right now. Stacey is her bestie (other than mwah) and it sucks and it's not fair and i totally understand what she's going through because all my best friends are leaving me which brings me to my next topic..

missions.

sigh** whether it's 18 months or two years. the wait is going to be a struggle for me. my best friends are all on their way to preach the gospel and i can say i'm going to miss them more than anything.

Payton Sorenson:

Junior Year Homecoming

this kid left last Wednesday for New York City. We've been through a lot together and have been best friends a long time. He's the biggest goofball you'll ever meet if you get to know him and intimidates the hell out of everyone else. i'm glad to know him as well as i do. I love Elder Sorenson!

TAYLOR SOUTHWORTH:

my best friend since sophomore year

this pretty lady is leaving me on August 14th to go teach the people of Boston, Mass. it's unbelievable.  Taylor is literally my best friend.  she's been there for me through all the tragedies and awkwardness-es of my high school years, as well as i have for hers. I don't know how i'm going to cope with the fact that i won't be able to text her whenever i'm lonely, or have 3 hour skype sessions about the horrors of our lives or go buy carne asada fries for the 2nd time on a saturday night from Filli B's.  She understands me like nobody else does! ahhhhhh! WHAT THE HECK AM I GONNA DO? HOW AM I GONNA LET HER GO? but that's selfish. those people need her and she's about to do some pretty amazing things with her life. i just know it.

the struggle is real.

xo. m

an Ode to Soccer Moms and Summer

see this? yea. a shoutout to all those soccer

moms out there toting there kid from one thing to the next

i'm gonna be in the car from 5:30am to 1pm with all the different things

my mom signed my brothers and sisters up for.

can you detect my excitement? no? me neither.

 this is what my summer is gonna look like most of the time, with 

a little of THIS 

#SWEATY

holla atcha girl. i'm gonna be a chauffeur and workout summer long. it should be uhh. okayyy..

wish me luck.

m

No Words

you know. i have an amazing team. words can't describe just how important these people have been in my life this year. i love each of them so much. they have all secured some kind of bond that i think i'll hold for a really long time. 

Brianna, Me, Becca and Kami

Eddie, Jarell, Deante, Khalil, and Justin

But really. We are the underdogs- the kids that nobody took serious enough to see our potential of being amazing. the stuff that Chad put us through, the struggles, the teasing, the talks, the jokes, the parties, the friendships we've built are real. We could never have made it through this year alone. we're a unit, we're the jump squad. All of us have relied on everyone else to get them through the grind. it's been tough, but i love these human beings. they're amazing people who i can see going far in life. at least they better. And aren't they just an attractive bunch of people. sheesh. Jumper reunion in 10 years. yes?

xo.
m

Freshman Year.

So it's over. i accomplished my first year of college. i'd have to say that i'm pretty pleased with how it went. I  made some great and some BEST friends. made some dumb decisions. acted like an an idiot. accomplished some serious goals. got good grades. and i'm really happy. it was a pretty solid year. NO REGRETS!

Soooo. to recap the last couple of weeks. here's yet another photo dump.

Region Triple Jump Champs. #1

These are all from the Region Championships. The team was pretty much flawless. We won 5 out of the 6 jumps. impressive? yes. yes we are.

Unfortunately, i don't really have a lot to say about Nationals. i sucked. plain and simple. "Allegedly"  i was jipped out of a really big jump because they mismarked it. which really sucks because then my mind went to mush and i couldn't function for the remainder of my jumps. (just when i thought i'd conquered being a headcase) but oh well. i'll come back with revenge next year. Revenge and a scholarship somewhere awesome. hehehe. But the AMAZEBALLS Brianna Rodriguez managed to take third in long jump. i adore that girl and she deserved every bit of that title. she's put in so much work and she's a raw athlete. #soimpressive.

xo.
Mars.

just a thought.

i have conversed with a few people lately about how maybe i need to tone down my (what i like to call) awesomeness when it comes to getting to know the member's of the opposite sex. I've been told that i'm a lot to handle and that i freak people out and that everyone thinks i'm weird. OH YEAH? come at me, bro! i'll show you weird, you haven't even seen weird yet, it's bout to get so freakin weird up in here you won't even know what to call weird anymore! okay. i'm really strange..

side note: i took an ADD pill this last weekend (i'm not an addict! or a druggie.. i just just self-diagnosed, but my siblings all have it.. ) and apparently if you have add it'll make you focus and if you don't have ADD it'll just make you more hyper.. well. i took it. guess what? i was calm. THAT AWKWARD MOMENT.. when you have ADD and wish you would've known sooner.. yea. maybe i could've done better in high school. lame.

anywho. i'm jussayin that i like this quote. but i'm also jussayin that maybe people are right. maybe i need ADD pills. maybe i don't actually like them though. maybe i like my psycho, sexy self and prefer not being focused. maybe those pills made me feel like a boring human being. maybe i should go see a doctor and get a prescription. maybe i'll all of a sudden be smarter. maybe i'm dragging this out.

xo.
m

life lately.

went to mesa this weekend! holla.
spent all weekend just chillaxin with my family. Victoria had her SWEET 16! my bb is all growed up. it makes me sad. i love her soooo much and it's crazy that she's that old. my little cuddle muffin is supposed to stay young and naive forever. i don't want her to start dating or kissing boys. it's scary!**sigh** aaaaaand all i'm sayin is that freshman are hella awkward. like there was all these boys and girls just  hanging around at her party, but it was completely segregated. so hilarious. i tried to get them to play just dance. they couldn't even handle that. poor kids going through the whole "i have no confidence and i don't know what to do with myself or these feelings.." i loved my freshman year. i had a freakin sweet, little niche of friends and we were the bombshizz. huh. that was probably my fave year of high school, no worries and no drama.

and as seen in the pic above i got to spend time with my brown family. have i said how much i adore them?? like seriously, I LOVE THESE PEOPLE. i should have taken pictures of all the food- food comas are really people, along with food babies.. but hey! we celebrated CINCO de MAYO the right way. it was quite the fiesta. (now i remember why i gained weight in high school... they poly people plus my family know how to eat. doin that three times a week will slowly kill you, especially if you have a weakness for amazing food, like me..) ANYWAY! it was a fabulous weekend.

this week imma go kill it at the MCC track. that is if i get in the right mindset. i'd really love to win a region title for triple. CROSS YO FINGERS Y'ALL! go me!

xo.
M

i done it.

it's OFFICIAL! y'all i achieved my goal! i've had a little post-it note sitting on my mirror for the last four months that said 38 on it. well apparently my pschy figured out that i really wanted to achieve that number. honestly though, i really didin't think it was possible. it was a good number that i figured i would be able to get next year. but then i did it. i actually jumped 38.2 feet.

SO now i'm a big deal. okay, i always have been, but now i'm even more of one. i wonder when my big deal-ness overflows? (sarcasm, i'm not that vain.. or am i?)
anywho. about said jump, it's actually the ugliest thing i've ever seen. and watching the video makes me realize how much potential i have.  like i could probably go over 40 feet if i would put together my jump. frustrating and exciting all at once.

i'd post it, but it's not working. booooo!

mars

i love this boy.

soooooo. while i was home in Mesa my mom leans over to me just as we sat down in Sacrament Meeting and tells me we left Rhett at home. hahaha. she hands me the keys and i left to go get him..

i get home and find him upstairs pretending to be asleep all curled up with this puppy toy. i poke him and tell him he's a faker. he laughs and asks me why i was there. According to him"dad said i could stay home from church today." lies. i told him we didn't have to go right back away. so we had a little photo shoot and played around til my mom called home from the church and we rushed back. hahah i love the boy.

he's seriously the cutest kid ever.

xo.
M

photo dump.

 so i've been MIA for a bit. this is the latest happenings of my life.

got to go see my girls play tennis! they're so talented!

Robert Ramos, Aaron Orduno, and Eric Valdez

duckface isn't cute..

khalil and eddie

went out to dinner for Helena's birthday.
(seriously half the kids here don't know her they just told me to invite people and the track team all wanted to go.. i know how to make a party..)

went to mesa
 movie date with ma main squeeze!

she's so sassy

so glad i got to go home for easter, i hadn't been in mesa for like a good month and a half and i missed my family! i love them soooooo much!

more highlights:

• i won my heat in a 100m dash. (like 13 seconds flat, which ain't bad considering i'm no sprinter and have practiced twice)
• i scratched a qualifying mark at the Mesa Meet (i WILL qualify this weekend!!)
• i've been eating really clean and i can actually see a difference in how i look, for once!)
• i've been less of a internet junky and have been going and doing other stuff, hence why i haven't posted in ages..