ouch.

everybody has people walk in and walk out of their lives. what if you don't want them to walk out though? what if you wanted them to stay?

i'm here to say.. it sucks. a lot.
i got my feelings hurt this last weekend. i went through a lot of effort, planned ahead, and cancelled other plans only to get it shmushed back in my face. it hurt. it really did. i was sad. and mad. (i was even violently angry for about 2 minutes.. then it passed)
it's unfair the way we humans treat each other. i feel like i live my life in a very real way though. i don't have a hidden agenda. what you see is what you get. it's seems so simple. i guess i can't really understand or properly judge what really went on and why i was blown off and treated so poorly, because i don't know, but i do know that i wish it hadn't happened. i wish things would've worked out. i think i would feel happier.
so i currently have a strong disdain for liars, fakers, posers, story-tellers, and players. they upset me.
but i'm gonna just be happy. i deserve that.

my momma told me that i need to stop looking for life and just let life come to me. she says i'm doing something with my life. i'm not sitting around. but i need to stop worrying and just do me. i like her. she's the coolest, recently 41 year old i know. and i know i've said it a million times, (maroon 5, anyone? k. maybe not..) but i'm lucky to have her. she's more than a mom, she's my best friend.