never again.

today i'm annoyed and i'm not gonna let this happen to me again. today i realized that i'm a big girl. i don't need people to tell me how to live my life. Okay peeps, i'm talking about peers, not old people or your mom, your great aunt, like hey I'll listen to them all day, they've gone through more, they know more, but if you're my age? homegirl, please.. i feel like that at this stage in life, unless you are looking for advice and actively seek it, nobody and i mean NOBODY has any right to put in their two cents. like what the hell? did i ask you what yo think i should do with my life? no. NO I DID NOT! so don't come at me with what you think is right, i wasn't even talking to your ugly face. 

Yeesh. i dislike girls. the drama. the jealousy. the pettiness. the need to open their enormous mouths and spit out garbage that no one cares to hear. I'm sorry you're not satisfied with your life. like yea i get it. neither am i sometimes. but no need to throw your troubles at me in the form of belittlement. I AM AN ADULT. and i don't wanna hear you. didn't anyone teach you that. uhhhhh! bad word. bad word.. bad word.

is this just me? no? yes? okay..

xo.
m

one year.

so. i've officially had this blog for a year. go me! it's been a little buddy that i can write about my life and remember things on. so HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLOG! and i'm patting myself on the back because i've been a diligent parent to this little sucker. who knew i could be such a responsible parent? i always sucked at journal writing but the whole blogging thing is something i really enjoy even if only 3.2 people read it. i don't even care, i'm satisfied.

I think it's pretty amazing how much i've changed as a person in the last year.. i've grown up a WHOLE lot. it's funny looking back and reading old posts. i was a weirdo. (still am) i think my goal for this year though is to be a little more specific in what i write about. i realize how vague i am and i'd like to understand what i'm actually trying to say. i mean, like i said, 2.8 people actually read this blog and they aren't gonna judge me. so here's to the year i had, and here's to the years to come! #bloggingiscool

xo. m

happiness.

so i'd like to update the world.. or just the 2.5 people that read my blog and say that I'm happy. I'm that genuine, for no good reason, smiling because i can, and you can't bring me down, kind of happy.

 I MEAN PEOPLE, THIS IS HUGE, LIKE I'M NOT EVEN IN LOVE! 

unless you count being in love with life, love.. huh.. anyway. like i just feel good, and i'm content, like even though life isn't really going my way completely, and i don't really like school and my problems really haven't disappeared i'm just gonna be fine with it.. (for now, at least) cuz i don't like to be stressed. My 99 problems aren't really that big of a deal anyway. soooo what's contributing to my happiness? well. i think it's a combination of a lot of things. 

namely being:

my birthday is coming!!

i'm being really good in my eating habits and that makes my body feel good and function right.

my room is spotless and everything is in its place ALL THE TIME!

i'm working my booty off at track everyday

i get up early and go to bed at a decent time everyday

MOST OF ALL THOUGH, i'm staying on top of my spiritual side. i pray REAL prayers and i read my scriptures everyday with real intent. 

i think my spirituality is probably the real culprit to why i feel good, but if someday i'm in a rut?

 this is the combination to happiness for me. ha! even if life isn't perfect, i can still be happy.

xo.

M