{Five} Things

1. Having seven sisters is probably my favorite thing in the world. my sisters are the biggest pains in the neck and also my best friends. i couldn't function properly if even one of them wasn't in my life. 

2. i decided that i'm gonna try to not dye my hair once this year. i don't remember the last time i went more than four months without dying it so this is gonna be a challenge! i don't wanna call it a goal tho.. bc like if i don't accomplish it then.. awk.. my hair is bout to get real oily tho. gonna have to start showering more. flip.

3. have i ever explained my love for lifting? like. i love it sooooo much. the ache and pain and deep rooted agony in your soul after a good heavy session? there's nothing like it. i like how more people are starting to get into it though. the "strong is the new skinny" trend is a step in the right direction. i like being strong. lift like a lady or a dude. i don't care. #shehulk

4. #FIRSTWORLDPROBLEMS the water in my shower just does not seem to stay hot for as long as i want it to lately. like for real i don't even take long showers, but you can't stay hot for more than eight minutes? jeez. what's a girl gotta do to get some hot water around here..?

5. i have a healthy obsession with Lupita Nyong'o. (please click her name and understand) like i can't even comprehend her beauty. God put an extra dose of gorgeous in her, bc like she radiates with perfection. die.

-m

my best friend.

i've been reading a lot of articles lately.. actually i always am reading articles.. it's what i do since i don't feel like i can sit still long enough to read a whole book.. but that's besides the point. anyway. lately my articles have been about moms. being one, being a better one, how to be a good one.. so on, so forth..

i just wanna take a second to say how grateful i am for my mom.

she's everything i want to be. from the time i was coherent and aware of life i just admired everything about her.SH'es just so awesome.  She has a beautiful voice and i love that she taught me so many silly, little songs that i hope to someday teach my own kids one day.
she taught me to be independent. i used to complain about it when i was younger. my mom wasn't one to make me breakfast every morning, school lunch, or get me up for school EVERY morning. she did do it on occasion though. i remember being jealous of the kids whose moms did do that every flippen day.. but you know what? i'm sooooo glad she didn't because those kids are the ones who aren't independent and honestly, these days, knowing how to be independent and how to take care of yourself is even more crucial than it has ever been. everyone relies so much on technology that they are forgetting to teach there kids REAL LIFE skills.  i know way to many people my age whose mom did ALL their laundry, cooked and cleaned, and never gave their kids responsibility. Who's laughing now? i can stand on my own.
Said kids are like "nooo. my parents love me, that's why i'm 20+ and still getting a weekly allowance."
please. love? no. you're being coddled. one day that's gonna get cut off, then you'll be cold turkey in the real world. good luck with that. "LOVE" has nothing to do with it. lol. rant over.
truth is, my mom has taught me what "love" is. love is time. love is service. love isn't getting, it's giving and not expecting anything in return. I don't know about my brothers and sisters, but i'm grateful that my mom has ingrained that in my brain. To love people is why we are here on this earth. Because if you love everyone around you in a Christlike way, how can you go wrong?
personally, i'm glad my mom isn't a clean freak or OCD about things being perfect. because i feel that it taught me to not stress about little things and to be comfortable with what you have to offer. why cry over spilled milk? i remember breaking a pretty glass pie tin when i was younger and being so scared that she'd be upset, but she wasn't, she helped me clean it up and moved right along. i love her.
also my mom taught me confidence. she asks my brother and i all the time why we're so vain and full of ourselves. it's not so much that we think we're beautiful (okay maaaybe my brother does..), but we're completely comfortable with looking like fools and being loud and dismissing anybody that thinks anything less of what we view ourselves as. like, that's pretty amazing for a mom to instill in her kids.  a confident kid thrives in this world. mom, you're building children to be natural leaders. (insert applause)

all in all though i'm just glad my mom is who she is. she doesn't try to be flashy, or perfect to society. she is just being a mom. i think a mom's job is the hardest one. there's no days off. no hour lunch break. it's a constant battle. EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. from crying little ones, to diapers, cleaning, to homework assignments, procrastinated projects, shopping, bills, laundry, chores, dinner, more cleaning, directionless teenagers, or just 13 stubborn, loud, obnoxious kids. my mom doesn't complain. maybe she occasionally wants to run away.. but hey, who doesn't. :]

i love my momma.
 she's weird. she's crazy. she's funny. she's smart. she's talented. she's a simple mom. she's the best mom ever.

being that Sunday was her birthday.. this post just happens to be fitting, although i started it before her birthday..
happy birthday, meeshki.
-m

Life Lately + 2014goals

Happy New Year. 2014 is startin off strong.

So. have you heard Queen Bey's new album. killer.

Anywaaaay. my mom has been nonstop about my future. it's freaking me out. i'm a details person, but those are details i don't wanna mess with. she like wants me to start planning ahead and i just wanna live right now. In fact, i feel like everyone is trying to get me to plan ahead. I have all these questions and problems and people and ideas swimming around in my head at all times and i'm gonna drown here pretty soon. sounds pretty dramatic huh? it's not that bad, i just wrote that cuz it sounds cool. moving on..

at the same time, i feel sort of stuck where i am at. i can't make any decisions about ANYTHING right now. there's too many variables, too many people who will get their feelings hurt. too many things that i'll "what if" later though too. i'm stagnant. but, like, i don't mind it. really i don't. i'm content with my stagnation... it's fine with me.
i used to want to fast forward my life and just be five years down the road already. i'm realizing i don't want to be established yet. i still want to get through some adversity and cry and make mistakes and be sad and feel hopeless. okay. maybe i don't want it that bad, but i definitely don't wanna be anywhere else but here right now. my life is really simple, my problems are all in my head and i know i'll look back at now someday and wish i had it this good again.. so i'm gonna enjoy the nothingness. it's pretty calm here.. for now.

2014 goals. {cuz like, why not..}

find a school that will pay for hopefully all your last 2 years and have it be someplace where you will be most HAPPY.
read the BOM 3 times
do something memorable this summer
get a real job (this one is debatable)
don't let anyone or anything influence the choices you make this year.. they're gonna be big..- except God. ;]

-m