Happy New Year. 2014 is startin off strong.
So. have you heard Queen Bey's new album. killer.
Anywaaaay. my mom has been nonstop about my future. it's freaking me out. i'm a details person, but those are details i don't wanna mess with. she like wants me to start planning ahead and i just wanna live right now. In fact, i feel like everyone is trying to get me to plan ahead. I have all these questions and problems and people and ideas swimming around in my head at all times and i'm gonna drown here pretty soon. sounds pretty dramatic huh? it's not that bad, i just wrote that cuz it sounds cool. moving on..
at the same time, i feel sort of stuck where i am at. i can't make any decisions about ANYTHING right now. there's too many variables, too many people who will get their feelings hurt. too many things that i'll "what if" later though too. i'm stagnant. but, like, i don't mind it. really i don't. i'm content with my stagnation... it's fine with me.
i used to want to fast forward my life and just be five years down the road already. i'm realizing i don't want to be established yet. i still want to get through some adversity and cry and make mistakes and be sad and feel hopeless. okay. maybe i don't want it that bad, but i definitely don't wanna be anywhere else but here right now. my life is really simple, my problems are all in my head and i know i'll look back at now someday and wish i had it this good again.. so i'm gonna enjoy the nothingness. it's pretty calm here.. for now.
2014 goals. {cuz like, why not..}
find a school that will pay for hopefully all your last 2 years and have it be someplace where you will be most HAPPY.
read the BOM 3 times
do something memorable this summer
get a real job (this one is debatable)
don't let anyone or anything influence the choices you make this year.. they're gonna be big..- except God. ;]
-m
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